Friday, January 21, 2011

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Along way of waiting..

I woke up today
Without any make up on my face
Without you on my side
And without the brightness of the sun in the sky

Lust less...

So I put on the mascara and the glossy lip-balm
I tie my sneakers
And gone to the field

Not only hours -the time that I took, waitin for you

I spent days
Sitting on the fragile chair

Sometimes.., when I got bored
I went to the ocean
Watching the waves
But none of them was as strong as my sickness of waiting

At another times
I just took a few steps to the alley
Avoided the crowd
Settling on the alley stairs when I got tired
Then contemplating my vain of waiting

I loose many times, Honey..
I loose many things
Only for waiting

I want to use my white veil
And meeting you at the beach

Not using my veil
Only for another waiting..

Tuesday, January 4, 2011


Hello, everyone.. This new writing is suggested by Miranti -thankss, Dear.

This evening I went to the hospital, to the obstetricians exactly, for some reasons -but not pregnancy for sure! That was like a place where I shouldn't be -on my age.. All of the seats outside the examination room was covered by the spouses, where the wives were bloated (pregnant)!

The worse part happened when one of the lady seated left beside me asking just like this: "Where is the husband, Mbak (term for calling a woman in Javanese)?" Although that wasn't the worst! The worst was when the old lady seated right beside me asking me this: "Newly pregnant, huh? How many months to go, Mbak?"

Damn you, obstetricians' patients!!


Monday, January 3, 2011


So, here I am. Lonely in my home-village-town. Missing the crowd, missing the boy. Without knowing whether he misses me or not. How come this such of feeling can be so big?

When you pass your day by day with some people, then you release them out because of a (lets say) migration to another place, there's always an excited feeling because you will go to the new place, maybe your childhood place, but there's also a feel like you loose something. In my case I loose the taste of ayam penyet -my fav dinner menu at Bandung, I loose the hug and kiss, I loose my fav friends, I loose the mall and cafe.. Ouch!

Ahhh, want to scream loud out that I'm yearning all of them!!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

New Year Resolutions

There's no much number on my new year resolutions list. Maybe these are a few things that I can share to you:

1. My very first thing is become more patient

About a week ago, I watched Evan Almighty the old movie. There's one lesson strengthen my soul. I quote directly from God (Morgan Freeman):

"Let me ask you something. If someone prays for patience, you think God gives them patience? Or does He give them the opportunity to be patient? If he prayed for courage, does God give him courage, or does He give him opportunities to be courageous? If someone prayed for the family to be closer, do you think God zaps them with warm fuzzy feelings, or does He give them opportunities to love each other?"

So, I'll try to be more grateful for every opportunity He gives me to practice my patience, no matter how sucks that opportunity :p

2. Finish my thesis and get an A

Pray for me. Pray for me. Pray for me!

3. After that, have career at PWC -public accountant office

Thanks, family, for supporting me :)

4. Becoming more humble and tender

Sometimes my temper wins me, I'll try so hard to brake it..

5. Always bring happiness for my family, friends, and boyfriend

Thanks all have made my 2010 year bright, you all are precious! Love you..