Imaginary Problems

Now about problems.

I wanna talk about some people who feel that theirself have the most and the biggest problems. About some people who feel that theirself are the most miserable person and need to be pitied. Well, actually you do when you feel that way!

I’ve been looking for the answer of “why do they think that way” and maybe I find one. It maybe because they jealous with everybody. They just jealous. It could brings you to so many bad and unwise act. And actually it just makes you looked awful in front of other people.

They jealous this thing, they jealous that thing, that girl looked more famous, taller, or just more likable. That man looked smarter, richer, or just more man. And bla bla bla.. I guess, sometimes, that people even do not notice that they are in the middle of jealousy and voala they act like looser.

Hey, the fact: you are not! You are beautiful, you do beautiful. Don’t waste your time to jealous. Use the time to look in the mirror and find your sparks.

Then I looked deeper for the answer of “why do they jealous” and maybe I find another one. Maybe they do not have something to be proud of theirself. There’s nothing make them feel different as a person. So, that’s why I always told you to find your dream. Or don’t call it a dream, just find your hobby that you will be great at! There you’ll find a value of yourself. There you’ll find your confidence. There you’ll get better in socializing and maybe it will be easier for you to be like. It always should start from yourself, not your surrounding.

I pray for each of you from my place. For your dream. For your happiness and peace. Cheers!

Brown Book

I have to admit that in my relationship with kikin, we do many things that sound (well this term of word maybe can represent what I mean) "unyuuuu". We are both spoiled. We named after many things kikin bought for me and vice versa. We have Nucka -the uglydoll, then there is Elmo -the elmo from sesame street doll, we have Grow -Nucka's friend cause they both colored brown, and then Bagus -the first thing that we named which is kikin's motorcycle, and so forth. Actually kikin and I can make a football team from those imaginary friends. And the latest thing we had was this brown book which I bought at Muji. We wrote this book with anything we like to write. One night it will stay at my place then I'll give it to kikin the day after; kikin will return it to me after that and so on and so on and so on. Honestly, I do feel like a teenager and sometimes I just don't wanna let everybody knows it because you know I'm almost 21 and only by saying unyuuu in the middle of the crowd suddenly I can feel embrace. But kikin's write on that book was actually really good, it can make me smile even for the 2nd time I read. And I've just realized that this is the way of us to share our day to day dreams, our hopes, our biggest fear, our smile, and our love for everybody; it is just our story, wherever it will be ended at.

And thanks to you for sharing those dreams with me. I am really happy that I have you in my life -and Nucka and Elmo and Grow and Bagus (hahahahaha).