killing time

1.what is your name?
Alice

2.What colour pants are you wearing right now?
Im putting on my skirt

3.what song are you listening right now?
I Will – The Beatles

4.what are the last four digits of your phone number?
5689

5.What was the last thing you eat?
Nasi Gudeg

6.if you were a crayon, what colour would you want to be?
Black, so many people won’t use me

7.where do you want to go on your honeymoon?
Moon if I could

8.who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?
Probably myself

9.how is the weather right now?
Blue

10.last person you talked to on the phone?
My client –Pak Dwi

11.what’s the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Their hair length

12.how are you today?
Feeling guilty

13.your fave drink?
Thai ice tea

14.alcoholic?
So that’s why Im feeling guilty

15.how do you eat an Oreo?
Bite?

16.favourite sport?
Swimming

17.what makes you happy?
Roses and Lilies

18.hair colour?
Black

19.eye colour?
Black

20.height?
Around 156cm

21.what do you like to do?
Being alone on the beach. Sit on the sand. And just writing or doing nothing there.

22.have you ever won any special awards?
Being the only daughter of my parents

23.what are your future goals?
Able to giving back to the community

24.fave music?
Hard to decide

25.fave food?
Rice?

26.fave movies?
The Notebook, cause it reminds me how to love

27.fave day of the year?
My brother’s birthday

28.fave month?
June

29.are you shy to ask someone out?
It depends on someone whom I ask to go out

30.whats the stupidest thing you have ever done?
Too much on my list, not enough space to write it here

31.on the phone or meet in person?
Just chat I preferred

32.summer or winter?
Neither, it doesn’t matter when you live in my country

33.hug/kiss?
Should I choose? I need both

34.worst feeling in the world?
Saying goodbye

35.living arrangement?
Small house, somewhere unreachable

36.what is the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning?
To snooze my alarm

the more i know myself, the more i love her

ALOHA! As I promised to you, I’ll write today. And so, how’s your answer? Are you a pretty good person? Haha.. Well, lets just start with myself.

I’m not. But I’m better from what I’ve been before. I’m still mad and curse on something, I’m still lazy –very. Basically I’m still me in a better version. On top of that, I know myself even better and the more I know her the more I love her.

Well, that’s all. How about you? Do you know yourself?

Cheers! @AliceAyu

what do you think about yourself?

What do you think of yourself? As human, admit that most of the time we talk about others behind their back. We say them A, we say them B, we say a lot about them like we really know them. And now, do you know yourself better than you know other people around you? And if you do know yourself, what will you talk about yourself? And please be objective. Will that be good enough? Will you like what you say about yourself?

I’ll give you a day to think about it. Catch up with all of you later (tomorrow I wish) with your answer in your heart.

See ya very soon. Cheers! @AliceAyu

MULUT TAK BERNAMA

Mereka punya nama

Hanya saja tak menggema

Coba saja suruh bicara

Tak kan kalah dengan Tuannya

Mendongak tak boleh mereka

Tuk berlutut lututnya tercipta

Berjarit kain, beralas tanah

Surya terbit, mereka berdarah

Maka buat apa mulutnya?

Buat apa kepalanya?

Takhta diduduki demi mendepak manusia bumi

Maka sekalian saja makamkan mayat-mayat mati

Dan kebumikan harga-harga diri

Biar puas, biar sumringah berharam jadah

Sampai suatu kala nanti

Ia kan turut mati, terkubur sendiri dibalut sepi

AHOY!

AHOY! Maybe it’s time for me to update you with my daily life. Time was being so exciting these days. Surprisingly, I do enjoy my job. I love it even. Just you know, it’s good that the beginning was okay, so I hope it will be fine till forever. Actually there are a lot of things that I can absorb from my working hours and from the environment itself. Ahh there are a lot of smart persons around me and it does makes me becomes more and more exciting day after day. It was amazing actually how the whole system supports this big company. There’s no gap and everybody’s just like welcoming us –the new associates.

And now my dream is getting bigger and bigger. I believe I’m gonna achieve it and so you do I hope. So where are you now in reaching your dreams? Have you reached yours or do you think that you’re not even close to it? Don’t worry, just keep believing and hope! Work on it every single day, work it hard! I believe that the opportunity will be opened for us who are willing to work it out. Even for you who do not trust any of God, I believe you still believe in nature or everything bigger than you right? So, just don’t stop dreaming and do not stop working it out cause (remember) the opportunity will someday be opened for you.

Cheers! @AliceAyu

who you are before you met him?

Having a boyfriend doesn’t always mean to have fun. No, it’s not even about that after all. It’s more about learn to know ourselves better. What do we want from a man –since I am a female. Sometimes it would be easier for us to know what do we want and like by knowing what we don’t want or dislike. It also helps us to at least notice that there is one person around us that working as hard as we do to reach some certain goals in life. It brings a lot of spirits and hopes I guess.

No matter what a boyfriends are for for you is, the most important thing is don’t forget who you are before you met your boyfriend. Don’t forget things that cheered you up before you met your boyfriend. Do not ever forget things that make you happy, things that make you smile before you met him. Because you still have to smile while those things happened, with or without him.

And the second point is the thing that you and your boyfriend have is should be a relationship that can make the two of you become more positive as a person. And that’s what boyfriends are for. Yeah of course, also to have fun, do crazy things and LAUGH.

Cheers! @AliceAyu

lain di mulut lain di hati

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I do believe that as a woman, we all are beautiful. We have the ability to inspire the environment with our tenderness. And not only by that, because from the era of Kartini, we found the new word that is “emancipation”. So, now women also have the ability to speak up their thoughts and reach out their dreams. And there are so many examples of a woman who has been on the top of her successes and inspires the world. So, it’s a must that we should thanking Kartini for made the opportunity happened. But on behalf of that, do you realise that the term of emancipation also brings a very big responsibility to all Indonesian women? Have you noticed that our environment expects us –women– to be a good mother in raising our children and also being an independent woman in the term of financial to support the rest of our parents' life and maybe for all the members of the family. Compare to the expectation of our environment from a man. Do you have a brother? Well, only if you have, ask yourself, do you ever see your mother asks him to learn how to cook well or how to use a needle? She must ask your brother to have a good pattern in his career life. While from you, she asks for both. Well, it doesn’t mean that so we should blame on Kartini. We should keep thanking her for raised up women’s dignity. Because from this fact and by a lot of examples of women alive and success in both area, we know now that nothing is really impossible for us; for women.

By all means, that’s not what I actually want to share about. On top of that, I want to ask all of you to think about something. Why do you think there are some women who would keep saying this “I better get foods to eat than a flower which will be withered on the next day” or this “I’ll be happier to get bank account than a flower which will be decayed on the next morning”? Don’t you think that’s just a way to be different from other women? Do you think they really don’t want to get one sweet bouquet from their lover on their birthday, anniversary or maybe graduation? Well, to be honest, I don’t think so. And so, the only thing I want to suggest is just don’t make your tough life any harder by ignoring what you do really want, girls. I know that sometimes it is our nature to be “lain di mulut, lain di hati”, but don’t we should try to be as simple as man but still elegant as who we are? Don’t you think that that would be easier for us? Yep, I know you do J And by the way, we deserve for many roses and yet we’re still more beautiful than all of them.

Cheers! @AliceAyu

sharing dolls. sharing smiles.

Friday has been passing by. And i'll share what i've done, not to brag about myself but just so you know that people in our age (before 23) are really can do something about charity. It's not father's mother's activity, it's our's. So you who are doing the same thing with me also can know that you're not alone. So, i'll just share it now :D

At first, it was actually me making a promise to myself that at the time i have some money, i'll spend it to buy new clothes and toys for the waifs or lets just call them children from the street. The mission is only to bring back these kids to become just-kids, not kids-with-jobs-on-the-street. And so, when i did have the money, i went to make it happen. And it happened. I bought 24 kiddy shirts and shorts for boys and girls. The girls got princess and cartoon character print on it, while the boys got famous football team shirts and shorts. Besides, because i'm a girl and i have this nucka as my lovely doll and somehow he's alive for me where i can share a lot of activities with him, so i think it will be good for the children have it too. So, i bought them 12 dolls which are so super cute and lovely :D

And then when i got stopped by traffic lights, i gave the clothes or the dolls to these children. Well, not all of the things have been distributed to the children yet because of some reasons. Ahh, all of you must see their reaction when i gave them the clothes and the dolls. Their smiles, their faces.. It's actually me who really get something, not them. They're angels.


For me, it's silly if you say "it's better not to give when you're not sincere" because if you say so, these children won't get anything from you. It's better you're not sincere but they still can get something from you to help them. Because they have nothing to be waiting for you to be sincere. They have nothing and they can't only wait. Because they're hungry and dirty and they can't wait. Because they're sick and they can't only wait for us to be sincere to help..

And again, it's actually us who will get something, not them.. Feel their smile and you'll be full of joy.

Keep smiling, people.
Cheers!