A point where i cried

This is the first time I cried so bad about something unworthy to be cried about.
This is the first time I felt so injured in my heart.
This is my handwriting and this is my story.
Im not brilliant or something but I know myself well and also love myself well, and it makes me able to do a lot of brilliant things.
And if you though that I am proud of myself, I am. What makes me not to? Or are you not becos youre just…..bad? Well, but I am not bad, because I am not you.

And if you ever once think that my wants to tell the world to please remember their dreams is only a matter of showoff thing, you are wrong. Totally. It is me begging all of you to chase your dream. Why? Because you have no idea how happy I am when I take a time to write, and I want all of you to feel it too. Because it isn’t fair if it is only me. I want all of you to feel proud about yourself to have something that you are really good at. Because it is amazing, because it raised up your confidence. Because it makes you feel as ‘someone’; it makes you feel valuable and useful as a human being. It makes you feel different or unique, not ordinary. Basically, it makes you SPECIAL.

This is why it is all about im telling you..

And if as all you can see from this is still about how arrogant I am, then maybe youre just not born to be a winner.

p.s: thank you for you having a lack of personality, cause it only makes mine looked better.

indonesian young people

Right now, i really want to talk about Indonesia, my beautiful country. A half year ago, i wont put the word beautiful in front of that 'country' word, i wont even think about Indonesia. Vice versa with my boyfriend who is very passionate about Indonesia. I once remembered he asked me "What reason makes you do not love Indonesia? While you asked me about the reason why i love it, let me ask you why you do not?" And then he continued "It has so may beautiful place. It has Bali, the place you always adore right? Dont you remember that is part of Indonesia? It has so many islands you really want to visit remember? Where do you think those islands are?". Then i took one night to think about it, one night that my boyfriend himself might do not realise. And here i am now, many step ahead from i am before. Sometimes i still feel weird about myself everytime -without conscious- i found myself talking about how great Indonesia is. I feel weird when i was really really sad when my country didnt win the SEA Games soccer match defeating Malaysia, and yet it still felt sad everytime i take a time to remember that loss.

So now here, i am about talking INDONESIA.

Well i do not know it much. But as long as i know, it has tons of great young people. There was Jakarta Fashion Week being held recently. Do you know that some of the entrants, including the designers were only on my age -21-25 approximately? Do you know that some of the owners of brand like Tosavica which has store at Grand Indonesia were also on my age? Do you know how many gold medal Indonesia got from its young athletes in last SEA Games? On the 10th day, Indonesia already got 155 gold medals. Can you still say that everything is wrong in here? NO, ITS NOT! If some of you say yes instead, i really hope you already has contributed an or some achievements to this country.

It is the time for Indonesia to shine for God's sake. And it is the time for its young people to help it shine. It is the time for people in our age to contribute big. It is the time for us to create not use. It is the time for us to not only speak but do what we speak. It is our time, it is our momentum. It is your time to do what you like and be the best on that. Pilot, runner, astronaut are also a job, its not only being a singer, doctor, or businessman that you can dreaming about. Be good be good, be big be big. DREAM HIGH.

Send lots of love from here..
@AliceAyu

its never too late to build your dream

I was supposed to be on different tab of my screen right now, doing my work (AT THIS TIME!!! its 9.10 PM fyi). But instead, here I am, cant hold it any longer to write. Do you know what am i thinkin about? Sometimes i feel really really scared if only i just stuck here in my routine and going nowhere, where suddenly times have gone away and i am 50 years old. How sad i could be.. I have a lot of...a lot of things i want to achieve, but basically i just want to live in my dream, in what i am called passion. Sometimes i get really really jealous with my boyfriend, he is living his dream everyday, he does what he likes and live from there. Sometimes i am so afraid that i cant follow him..

What do you want from your life? I want to write a magazine contained a profile of pemuda-pemudi Indonesia and their achievements or ideas and publish it free. I want to held a sharing session with all of pemuda-pemudi Indonesia who might have the same interest with me which is to live by our passion and who might have the same spirit which is to bring greatness for Indonesia. I want to get a butterfly tattoo on my chest. I want to own a clothing line. I want to build a child and youth foundation. And finally i want to have my own tv station.

Can you imagine having a tv station? Gosh, it was the largest communication tool existed! You can bring a very big impact for the country. You can contribute a lott! I cant imagine how happy i am will be by the time i have it. I will show the world how beautiful Indonesia is and how blessed we are as Indonesian. I also will show the world how we are Indonesian are smart, brave and creative. We are willing to take a step forward and learn to be successful person.

Someday..

Please, im begging, do what you like, and bring the best from there.. For yourself, for Indonesia.. Never hesitate to dream, even, its never too late to build it when you dont have one yet.

Cheers! @AliceAyu

AHOY!

AHOY! Maybe it’s time for me to update you with my daily life. Time was being so exciting these days. Surprisingly, I do enjoy my job. I love it even. Just you know, it’s good that the beginning was okay, so I hope it will be fine till forever. Actually there are a lot of things that I can absorb from my working hours and from the environment itself. Ahh there are a lot of smart persons around me and it does makes me becomes more and more exciting day after day. It was amazing actually how the whole system supports this big company. There’s no gap and everybody’s just like welcoming us –the new associates.

And now my dream is getting bigger and bigger. I believe I’m gonna achieve it and so you do I hope. So where are you now in reaching your dreams? Have you reached yours or do you think that you’re not even close to it? Don’t worry, just keep believing and hope! Work on it every single day, work it hard! I believe that the opportunity will be opened for us who are willing to work it out. Even for you who do not trust any of God, I believe you still believe in nature or everything bigger than you right? So, just don’t stop dreaming and do not stop working it out cause (remember) the opportunity will someday be opened for you.

Cheers! @AliceAyu

Build the Dream

This June I'll be 21, I can't read Go Girl anymore, maybe Elle will cover my needs. It's funny, isn't it, thinking about how we all are growing up. I remember I was just a little girl, lying on my pap's neck. Drinking milk, licking lollipop. Everything seemed so bright that day. Then suddenly I'm here, falling in love, having trouble, doing my own clothes-mix-n-match, having fun, having life, step-by-step being mature, being realistic, changing the plan for a young married, and bigger-ing the dreams. Isn't that so great? All the journey is just feel right. Thanks, God, for the perfect weather this morning, it again reminds me how to thankful.

Welcoming My Dream

Everybody deserves a big dream. From the possible to the unrealistic one. There are many stories in this big world with the theme of this. Mostly begin with a failure, then the hope brings a super power, till the dream can be reached, and finally a happy ending. That kind of stories or movies always work out in making me amazed and affected. But most of all, the movies always give me a courage to keep dreaming. Sometimes I was being so afraid to have a dream. I was afraid of fallen down by my own dream, and I was afraid to maintain it. While for some people, they live because they have some dreams waiting to be realized. And I always adore those people.

Dream. It’s really amazing the way it works. It pushes you to be better, brave, to be enthusiastic with world, enthusiastic to reach it. It teaches you to hope and believe. Everybody deserves a dream. Even if it is just a simple dream, it’s still a dream. So, sleep well and dream nice.

I’ll dreaming my everyday dream, it’s becoming a writer. Someday..someday...