About Insecurity

This idea of writing was came from a friend who was sharing her teology book she has just read. About insecurity. The book said that if when you were single you feel insecure about yourself, it wont get solved by getting married, that you will still feel insecure when you're married. Still from the book, it said that most of the time a person feels incomplete and hope that by getting married, their spouses could complete them. The fact is actually quite far from there -still according to the book. But in my personal opinion, i think it is somehow correct.

I found that for so many times i couldn't figure out about people, mostly girls, who feel unsave and act like their lifes are the most miserable life in the world. I can't understand them since i don't find anything wrong about them, most of them aren't ugly, fat, poor, brokened home or something. I also can't understand women who ban their boyfriends from meeting other women and vice versa. Are grown ups relationship are all about physical? If it is not, your boyfriend or girlfriend wouldn't attracted to other women or men in a very short time. So two or three hours meeting a day won't get them cheating on you. I morely can't understand women who dissalow their boyfriends from hanging out with their boy friends, men have this brotherhood mates you can't restrict them to meet. Then came this friend who were telling me about her teology book. The book said that insecurity came with history. A person who always feel unsave maybe ever had an experience back there on their childhood which make them feel rejected and unchosen.

Hmm.. So i guess it all makes sense now. Well, i can't surely say that they're acting like that is just because they are like that, because there is this little probability that they have history.....that should be respected. Hmm, but no, actually everybody has history, everybody has their past. It's all about how you react after tragedy. If you were making bad decision about how you react back then because you were still just a kid, you always have time to re-adjust your reaction now, i guess..

What i want to remind you all once again is that life is beautiful. You are beautiful no matter way. Sometimes bad things happened, it all makes you grieving and feel lonely. It makes your stomach hurt and your eyes wet. But no matter how, it all will back to fine again, because everything is okay, everything is just perfect.

Love,
Alice.

You do beautiful, people :)

My life is so much beautiful. I do have some troubles sometimes, but it really doesn’t count, because the happiness always win me. God gives me that life.

I had my time when I was so selfish, sensitive, and fake; when I was on my junior high school age. I lie and pretending, I cry and whining, so much mistakes, so much anger. Time has been much much better recently. I enjoy life, world, air, dew, laugh, I enjoy sadness sometimes. It doesn’t mean that my life is clear from what people called as problem, BIG noooooo!! The changes is not the life, it’s on me.

Problem comes to be solved, not to be kept or moreover to be maintained! It neither comes to be spread to get people’s attention.

All you have to do is knowing yourself better, before you try to understand others! People are unique, so don’t generalize them. Treat them as good as you can do. Remember: making others happy is the same with make yourself happy! Be smart, not accomplice! It’s not always about number that people care about, it’s about who you are and what you have inside your outlook! Some people package theirself with silk, but all they have inside are only envy and another envy, and I’m sorry for them..

How can people love you while all the things you do are only trying to be not you? You’ve been created beautiful, why do you think you need to add fake to beautify yourself? Respect yourself, please, by doing something nice and proper. What does it mean when people laud on you, but your deepest heart knows that it’s only a pretense? It’s not worthy, Dear, because you do beautiful from the beginning.