Why I Write

For now, I will tell you all why I started writing on blog. For so many times, I was dreaming about becoming a writer. But like a coward usually did, what following my dream is the fear, even when actually I wasn't doing anything yet to be feared of. And then, one day, when I was at the book store with my ex, I found one catchy novel cover and started to read the synopsis behind it. I know exactly that I will buy it, and I did. That novel was been entitled Waktu Aku Sama Mika (When I Was With Mika -red), written by Indi. The novel was made like it was the diary of the writer, that was the concept. And, I can't explain it clearly, but Waktu Aku Sama Mika was really touched me. The most awesome from the awesomeness. It's not because of the story was extraordinary, or because of the writer has a scoliosis, or her ex was a person with Aids; it's only because the words. Indi has such a very beautiful words, she brought me deeply into her writing. I cried when I should cry, I laugh when I've supposed to laugh, I was happy when I read it, no matter for how many times I've read. And yeah, Indi has a blog; that was the time I decided to have this blog. And actually I'm so happy I'm having it, it's just like having a pet, kinda. I feel like I have a friend that I have to update with my story or thoughts, friend that I should taking care of. Well, thank you so much, Indi, for sharing me the courage.

Anyway, Indi has published her second novel, titled Karena Cinta Itu Sempurna (Because Love is Perfect -red), and I've bought it last Friday :)



Visit Indi's blog: http://duniakecilindi.blogspot.com/

Hugging you tight, honey..

Today I learn about being grateful for everything. Just an unimportant information, this will be my 100th post, and I dedicate it for one of my friend. She is a girl, I never mention her before on my blog, but maybe there's a photo of her.

This morning she contacted me and asked me to come to her, to listen to her concern and her fear. Actually I was contacted her three days before, for the same reason -I asked her to listen to my concern and my fear, but we haven't decided the meeting day yet at that time. So, I came and finding her was crying. Well, actually the problem is the same, between both of us. But hers is much more complicated, because of some reasons, compare to mine. Yeah, that was the time where I remember the way to be grateful. Ahh, there's nothing I can do to make her feel better I guess. I'm so sorry for you, dear.. Be strong, as you always are.

I know that someday will come my day, my turn. Well, it's only your turn coming too soon, too fast to be faced. If you need me, anytime yaa..., just dial my number :)

Times really heal, honey, don't be afraid, besides you're stronger than what you think you are (I know it)..

Cheers, *kecuppppp

Doubling Me Date

Now I know why couples need other couples.

Damn, I need it!

Poetry is somehow hypnotized me..

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Kamu itu pasir
Pasir putih berkilat di tepian pantai
Kamu menari
Menari mengayun ombak
Kamu berdansa
Berdansa bertautan cahaya
Kamu itu angin
Angin Surga pembawa dahaga
Andai saja kamu tetap ada
Setia menyapa lara
Mengapa kumbang hinggapi tanaman
Mengapa lalu terbang tinggalkan halaman
Andai saja ia ada
Setia dalam duka
Mengapa tak tinggal
Malah lari kalang kabut mengejar berandal
Padahal aku ada
Padahal aku tinggal
Lalu aku jadi sendiri
Sendiri menyapa lara
Sendiri dalam duka

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Bicara saja
Padahal tak tahu suatu apa
Jadi biarkan saja
Biarkan kata-katanya menguap
Diserap lalat, lintah, dan polusi udara
Memang siapa ia?
Ia tak punya kuasa untuk buatku merana
Deburnya itu semu
Datang menahun
Tiada menggoyang bebatuan laut
Maunya apa kalau cuma menakuti
Maka tumbuhkan dulu rahangnya
Karna menggertak pun ia perlu gigi
Dan getirnya juga bohong
Hanya meratap tuk sebentar melenyap
Buat apa?
Di sini kita tetap berdansa
Berdua hanya kita yang tahu

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Berpuisi indah-indah
Tapi seolah tak menahu apa-apa
Badannya capai, letih dan lelah
Apalagi hati, sakit sampai berdarah
Pun tetap berdiri ia
Berpijak kuat, tegar dan mengalah
Maka itu ia disebut perempuan
Dan kan terus berpuisilah ia
Meski kan tetap tak tahu satu jua di depan laki-lakinya
Ada perempuan menyulam luka dengan senyuman
Mungkin ia malaikat perempuan
Tapi baru kali ini aku lihat seorang malaikat penuh luka dan sayatan
Maka itu perempuan disebut-sebut indah

Dear God,

God, today I don't feel okay, it seems like everything doesn't seem so right. But I'm still happy because You heard my prayer and You answer me. Sometimes I know that I should take a responsibility for my own happiness, but it's kinda hard, God. I usually depend it on many things, on my parents, friends, boyfriend, and things like clothes-money-trousers-shoes-purse-bracelets-earrings-and other shiny things. And now when I realize that comes the time where they, one-by-one, all will be gone, I feel terribly sad. Because honestly, I love the people so much. It frighten me out..

Ahh, this afternoon, I met a few people. Many different of them. I met person with a smile; with a laugh, but mostly I met people in a hurry faces. I don't want to be like them, God, so please guide me with my thesis. I'm working on it, You see it Yourself. And I swear I'll give my best shot for this.

I love You, God. Contact You soon.

Your daughter,